Women Of Prison

Submitted 8 years ago

im 43 i went to both oklahoma and missouri i went to the boot camp in in oklahomafor 9 months i was successful.missouri picked me up on graduation day. i went to vanadallia prison in missouri. there was more drugs there in r&o than on the streets. it was very diffacult to make the change to chillothe. there is a kill or be killed.i was a soft sweet person but by the end i was ruthless i went to the hole 2 times each for 37 days.one for my roommates stole my stuff and kept threatening me . so i had to check in.i had three black room mates and putting black and wbite felons crom a to d in one room is a super bad idea. you learn whos boss and who to hang with and who to not.one of fhe popular people was a killer of her daughter and a child molester. i lived with 3 killers and myself.i cried so much i didnt rhink it was possiable to make more tears. chilli othe has sexual abuse issues.male and actually one female guard were fired for having sexual relations. i myself had a special friend but it ended and nothing happened. ive seen so much blood and wicked women i hate women. i dont have female friends and dont care to. ive learned in the face of fear i use to run now i stay and say whats up.my time at boot camp gave me morals and strength and i learned i am a real live woman who makea mistakes.i lived with a man who beat me rapes mw with a bottle and stabbes me 3 times in my back he beat me so bad i couldnt walk for weeks. ive tried 3 times to kill my self because i felti was a failure. now im doing so good now i live with my parents and ive been through 5 surgies since my release from prison 3 was directly crom boot camp. heres how rough boot camp was im thw morning i was a tutor so one day they moved all my stuff into another locker and i had started my period that moring rwo minuts bedore leaving so o put thwm in tje back of my locker in a bag. so when i returnedour captian held up my period undeewear called me a nasty woman and said if he ever dound that again i would go out to the prison.and to me that would of been extra five years. i was moldwd to be a solider and i was i went straihht to the top i was a from a bad mean woman because they had all betrayed me. once i had power it was on. did i mention i was under protection with a fake name aocial securiyy because my boyfriend was a gang member and he thought i told on hom so i was on a hit list he found me two weeks before i left i ended grasuating 2 week early. ans thats the tip of an ice berg.